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He did this to me

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Posted July 26th, 2010 by Bella

Growing up with a loving family that was always there for you was how I lived. I had a guy cousin 2years younger then I (We will call him Andy). Andy was like a brother to me. He stayed over all the time. One night my real brother (we will call Jimmy) came into my room and ask if we wanted to watch Band came and I said "No, i'm going to go to bed". So Andy went into the other room with Jimmy and watch the Band camp... I kept hearing breathing and feeling lifting of my shirt. So i opened my eye and seen that Andy was touching me in bad areas. My heart started beating really fast and the only thing i could think about doing is fake sleep and turn on my side. Then he started touching my butt and reaching around front. I wait awhile and acted like i woke up and Andy huried and layed down. I told him to go to sleep and I tried going back to sleep. The next day i acted like everything was alright and dandy.. A few months later I went to a friends house and came home and seen that Andy was there. He ask me if he could sleep and my room and I said "no". I shut the door and locked it when I could hear his foot steps go down the stairs. The next day i ran downstairs to see if Andy was still there my mom could tell something was bothering me. I acted like i didn't know what was going on and went on with my day. After dinner that day i kept acting out how i should tell my mom about what happen to me and how i feel uncomfortable with him around anymore. I finally got the nerve and went into my mom's room and told her what happen with tears rolling down my face saying i'll be fine... Now its been a year and a half still dealing with the idea a family member would do that. Someone you should trust. I now today don't talk much to anyone and I have horrible trust issues. Maybe one day things will be like they used too be.