There's a guy I'm totally in love with, and I'm assuming he's in love with me also. I've known him for almost 4 years now. We've dated off and on. He has moved out of state so we don't see eachother that often.
One of the times we broke up, I was pissed and didn't speak to him for almost a year, but he always comes back. After we break up, we date around, but we've never gotten into anything too serious with anyone else. The last few times he's come back to me, I was in a relationship, but of course I immediately dropped the guys I was with for him.
My current situation is that, once again, he's come back, but I just can't come to to dump my current boyfriend. Though I love my ex, I've also told my current boyfriend that I love him. He would do anything for me, he's financially stable and just the "perfect" type guy. I thought that I loved him, until my ex came back into the picture. Him and I talk almost every day, and I figured eventually I would come around and dump this great guy I have for my ex.
Well, my ex has recently found another girl and they seem kinda serious. He still tells me he loves me but I don't know now. He's told me before that he thinks it's possible to be in love with 2 people because he is, and that doesn't even include his current girlfriend. I think otherwise because I've been in that type of situation before. Last thing I heard, however, is that he doesn't want to care about the other chick he's supposably in love with because the feeling isn't mutual.
So I'm now afraid that he's either slowly moving on because he thinks I want to stay with my boyfriend, trying to make me jealous, or wants me to dump my boyfriend before he dumps his girlfriend. The last thing I want is for them to be together, but I wanted to wait for the right time to dump my boyfriend, if I even truly decide to do it. I know that there's really no "right time" to dump someone, but I mean when I'm ready. I'm a huge hypocrite, and my boyfriend is basically living a lie. He's starting to be on to me. He keeps telling me he feels like I'm pushing him away and there is nothing he can do. I deny everything and just tell him what he wants to hear. He knows there is something the matter with me and keeps getting upset because I never tell him anything knowing he won't judge me. How exactly do you tell your boyfriend who is madly inlove with you about this kind of issue??
But the reason why I won't just drop him is because I think I'd be better off staying with him if my ex decided to change his mind. This is honestly eating me up inside, and constructive advice would be great. Sorry this was so long but I've kept it bottled up inside for a while now. Thank you for reading!
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