I broke up with my boyfriend, of a year and a half, over 6 months ago. I still think about him often, although he is an egotistical liar who manipulates everyone around him. I had sex with my best friend in an attempt to get over him and although I lead him on--I always attempt to set boundaries. I am not attracted to my friend, the sex we have is beyond amazing, but I just do not see us having a future.
I fear that I will be alone forever. I am gay and want to find a cute, intelligent, normal guy who will love me for who I am. I believe that will never happen. I am not that outgoing when it comes to 'actively' finding guys, and perhaps part of that problem is I never know if someone is gay... I am not into anyone who is flamboyant--making my job more difficult.
I have so much on my plate, with applying to graduate schools and trying to decide on my future. I simply want to be loved.
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dohickey said:
hey -- there is truly an answer. start with reputable (planetout, etc) gay oriented dating sites, and invest the time before you meet someone to figure out how smart and funny they seem to you. and see a few pepole to figure out what things work and don't. you'll not be alone
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oh stop wining and be yourself. Futures take time to develop.
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