marriage
So, I've been married just over a year now, and have just moved in with my parents. The worst part is, we are hardly ever alone! continue reading »
Had dinner with a friend from grad school. He's gay, and told me that another classmate of ours - also in his 40's, married and has kids - was in the closet in grad school and now has been calling the dinner friend wanting to "get together". I'm out of my league here, but seems his wife and family need to know before this guy goes cheating on his wife... if he's not already. continue reading »
i think i lost her, and it was the chance after the last chance. my fault, and now... totally did a 180, changed my life, and finding myself again... and i realize i am truly the person she'd want, if i'd been that person over the last few years. found myself, and looking back, i was a huge trainwreck. crap.
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they say the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference. i've been working and working to try to mend my marriage and myself, and it looks like this wasn't the 11th hour, but 12:01. i'm crying. really. she is my dream and i screwed up. and now, i unscrewed myself, but too late. i have to go to a work dinner, but i just want to crawl under my desk and cry.
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if i ended up losing her, despite everything i'm doing to make it work, would i deserve to rattle in a huge house alone, or should i just cut to the chase and shrivel up and die?