my mom begs me to kill myself every other week when we get into an argument...of course it makes me feel like shit and sometimes i even think about it because parentals really push me over the edge these days but im just too much of a chicken to do anything...to scared to do anything...and i have all these ambitions but honestly dont really care about the future...father isnt that bad but he's a two faced asshole...relations with my parents aren't nice at all...everyday any little thing i do pisses my mom off...and my dad just backs her up without even know what i did wrong, just for the fun of it...and she yells at me but lately i feel like im shutting myself inside of me and not paying attention to...before when she used to yell at me...i couldnt stand it...used to talk back but lately i just stay quiet, walk out and shut myself in my own room...im a high school student with a bunch of in school activities so i stay in school for app 14 hours a day...sleep for 4-5 hours...so basically im awake at home for about 5 hours...out of those 5 hours 95% i spend in my room working on my hw...or just on facebook trying desperately to keep my social life intact...and that 5% that i dreadfully spend with my parents degrades me to the point where i just feel fucked up inside.
i dont know if my mom pms's all the time...or thats what she's turned into these days...but right now as im typing this i can hear my mom bitch at my dad for seriously stupid reasons.
definately sure that after im of age...im going to try as hard as i possibly can to not keep relations with my parents...
im just tired of what they put me through.
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Shy said:
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I think the first thing you should do is remove yourself from your current situation. Running away is not option so instead, talk to grand parents, cousins, parents of friends, etc about moving in and finishing out your high school years there. Explain to them what is really going on with your parents and that things are at a suicide level.
Second, I would contact child serives for the state you live in and get a case worker that can help you out. If you need help finding information I would be glad to help you.
Most important, don’t let your parents win by killing yourself. I know it sucks because a parent should not be like your parents are but get over it. Why quit? Why give up dreams and ambitions cause your mom is crazy. Be stronger than her. She once had a choice like you do now and look where qutting on things got her. You were strong enough to write this post, challenge yourself to be even stronger and live.
Shy said:
NOTHING in this world is worth killing yourself over! Love who you are!
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