I always feel proud of myself, for being the way, i am. I thought that girls would always be happy next to me, 'cause of my qualities as a person, husband, lover, friend. But i was so wrong. People use me, they just care about how can i resolve their problems and when i do, they just forget about the person that helped them. Is really sad, that after trying to be nice, and say yes to all, now a simple "no", can 'cause my life to start again, to reset, to reboot, after 4 years of fights against a cruel distance, a forgotten past that will never be back, far memories and the uncertain future that awaits us all. Sometimes, i would like my life to end, out of meaning, to much to fight for, but so many different path that would had been chosen, instead of the ones that brought me to my actual life. I can't complain, but i'm tired, too tired. If there is calm after the storm, i really need it NOW, or i will chose to be next to my beloved ones, those that raised me as i am, and that i wish to see again, but with a hard choice to make.
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worrywort said:
i've been there, dude. i AM there. and yeah, have thought of going home to be with the good people that cursed me with being a soft-heart in a hard world. stick with the best of the people you know and try to duck that arseholes.
forgotten said:
Will do ! Thanks for the comment
Shy said:
Just think how the Heavenly Father feels when He gives so many daily graces and continual blessings to people who just curse his name and say "Stay out of my life"...take the "gimme-gimme-now-go-away's" that you've received, multiply them by a billion, and that should give you some idea of the rejection and selfishness aimed towards Him.
If the "escape" you're considering is suicide, I'd have to warn you (and no, I'm not Catholic) that doing so far from guarantees you a spot in the place of rest...in the Bible, Hebrews chapter 11 tells us "Without faith, it is impossible to please God", and suicide is basically saying "God, I don't trust you today." I cannot stress how seriously I would advise you to not ever even consider that as an option.
Your situation just goes to show that God really has experienced the same things we experience. As Hebrews chapter 4 points out:
14 "Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. 15 For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need."
I hope this helps you, as well as anyone else who feels used by others in this world. Realizing this has helped me tremendously in dealing with the selfishness that people approach me with, as well as keep my own eyes tuned to see when I'm showing the same selfishness to others (which helps me to NOT do so).
forgotten said:
Thanks friend, i appreciate those words.
Shy said:
May I suggest that instead of throwing yourself out there to help everyone so much, learn to expect something in return? Give everything and you'll end up with nothing. People should have to earn your help.
dumb ass said:
I am a good person as well,I think all my friends are ...
it makes people feels good..
but being good is not helping anyone you know,you must think about it before you do that,because there really are bad man around..
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